Long-distance Dating

Good evening, humble reader...

I love 'Him'.

I love his mind, I love his faith, I love how concerned he is for his family and their salvation, I love his laugh, I love his voice, I love his sense of humor, I love his quirks, I love his patience, and I love his understanding. Oh, and have I mentioned that I love his beautiful brown eyes?

The one thing I am not in love with right now... how ruddy far away he his!

I'm not stupid. I knew going in that this, if it developed to this point, it would not be easy. I want to see him everyday. I want to be able to talk to him face to face, or at least on the phone and not have it cost a fortune. I want to be near him for more than two days a month.

Ok, so I'm whining. I'm sorry.

I am thankful that we have had to get to know each other this way. I feel that I know more about him, about his personality, about what makes him tick than I would if we had only been friends or even dating in a conventional sense.

This chatting and emailing has forced us, or me at least, to think very seriously about this relationship. What do I want from this relationship? Am I willing to take the risks required? Am I able to open myself up to him in a way I have never done before?

I know I love him. I feel it... I know it... it is truth to me, like God's word is truth, like the earth spinning is truth, like peanut butter on sour dough toast is the best breakfast combo imaginable is truth...

So... I'm frustrated... not scared, not anxious... just frustrated.

I miss him... I wish he was here.

4 days, humble reader, 4 days...

Until next time,
~MissBaggins